I've known this all along but it really hit me today that once you become a mom.... you're life does not revolve around you. You cannot be selfish and you always have to be thinking about someone else. I guess that's how we should always live... putting others first but as a mother it hits you even harder. Today I woke up with a few plans... swimming, look at a flat, grocery shopping, guests coming over for dinner, the list goes on. However, Isabella woke up with other plans. Actually her plans didn't start until afternoon nap but anyway....
She woke up and something was obviously wrong. If you know her at all... she's one ACTIVE child. I've been told that she's busier than the boys, busy as a bee, etc... But today she just laid on the couch.... STILL as could be. I have never seen her this calm and passive. She wasn't hungry, wasn't thirsty, nothing. All she wanted was to either lay down or be held. I didn't think too much of it because I thought I woke her up and she was just still tired. So we got dressed and met Mike to see one more flat. On the way there... (if you get grossed out easily you may want to skip this part) I heard a cough and looked over at her to see fluids flying from her mouth. It was the saddest thing I think I have ever seen. Once she stopped she got the biggest frown and just started crying in pain. I was almost in tears having to see her so miserable. I did the best I could to clean up but poor Mike suffered the brunt of it. He was soaked, smelly and had to stay that way for the next hour.
I got home as soon as possible, cancelled our dinner plans and headed off to see Dr. Kelly. Pretty much the same thing Mike suffered from last weekend and there's nothing we can do but make sure she stays hydrated and once again they gave her three more medicines (they don't have an all in one type thing here... one thing for cough, one for runny nose, one for vomiting, etc). My heart just aches for her. She was more active in the evening and stopped throwing up but then it came from the other end. Poor girl is already suffering from a bad diaper rash. Ahhh.... please pray for my baby!
So anyway.... other than our trip to see the flat, none of my plans were accomplished! That's okay though... she's way more important than anything else. But it just made me think how much my life has changed since having her. I always have to think about how this or that will effect her and what is best for her. But this has been such a good reminder for me to put others first and that plans are never more important than people.
So maybe today... try to put someone in your life before your plans. Let them know how much you love them.