Numb

That's how I kinda felt today. We had a bad night of sleep and therefore I wasn't totally myself to begin with. Then I chatted with my Mom (hadn't done that since before we moved because of not having a phone) and she let me know that my Aunt passed away last week. I must admit this has got to be one of the worst things about being across the world from family. first not being there with my family during times like this but then secondly... not always finding out before the fact. But I was kinda numb in my response... in fact when I told Mike I said, 'Well I kinda expected it.' It's true, she had some health issues that I figured would lead to bad things and my family is huge so I didn't know her super well but that's not a normal, sympathic response and I felt bad all day that I seemed to be numb to the fact of what had happened. And then I went running and after my initial run I decided to walk for a bit and listen to some worship music... and the numbness faded away. I felt like and idiot because I'm stretching in the gym and the tears just came. I may not have known her super well but I do love her and I love my Uncle and the reality of life and so many other things just hit. It once again opened my eyes to how short life really is on earth and how important it is to live a life that glorifies God and that is worthy of Him saying, 'Well done, my good and faithful servant.'

So anyway... I'm glad to be going to visit my family in just over a month and a half. Today made me realize how much I miss them and I'm anxious for Isabella to see everyone again... she's starting to say many of their names (though she'll probably still call 'Uncle Juan'... 'two' lol) and it'll be fun to watch her with all her cousins.

Now it's off to bed and prayers that Izzy will sleep well.